Endless Path : Infinite Cosmos

After seeing Loki's heart's desire, Vahn sat in silence for more than an hour as he processed everything he had witnessed. Whenever he used a [Hearts Desire], it not only showed him the memories of the person but also allowed him to experience some of their thoughts and emotions as well. Even when he had used Hephaestus's in the past, he wasn't able to recover immediately since he had to process the 'loneliness' of millions of years of existence.Though he had expected Loki to have suffered to an extent, Vahn was completely unprepared for his visions regarding her life. Hephaestus had disliked forging, but most of her trauma was related to her deformity and desire to find a worthy companion. Loki, however, seemed to suffer for simply existing since her Divinity required her to always scheme and cause chaos. She couldn't trust anyone, not even herself, and she genuinely hated existence itself. If not for her powerful fear of disappearing and desire to break free from the shackles of her own Divinity, Loki would have likely ceased to exist long ago.Just as he had experienced with Hephaestus, Vahn couldn't even begin to comprehend how difficult it would have been to live such an existence. He had spent a mere fourteen years as a prisoner with no hope of escape, not even death. Loki, however, had spent millions of years as a prisoner and was forced to act in a way that increased her suffering. She couldn't make any real friends and was required to manipulate those that got close to her. Though it was a strange thing to empathize with, Vahn actually somewhat understood why Loki disliked Hestia.Because Hestia's Divinities pertained to the Hearth, Architecture, and the Home, it was almost guaranteed that any suffering or loneliness she experienced would be mitigated. All she had to do was act as the role of an observer that offered advice and support while other people did the majority of the work. Vahn even began to realize why Hestia was treated like a Goddess of Laziness after making that realization. He imagined what it would be like from Loki's perspective when she realized he would be joining the Hestia Familia in the future...it made sense why she would be angry.This didn't mean that Vahn would treat Hestia any differently, however, since her personality aligned with what Vahn considered to be ideal. He remembered that Hestia always worked hard and put her best efforts into supporting those she cared about, at least in the mortal world. Vahn wanted to bring the two of them closer in the future since, if he could get Hestia to empathize with Loki, she might actually experience what its like to have a genuine friend. Vahn also hoped that, by the time Loki had a child, he would have discovered a way to divert the focus of her Divinity and channel it into something tamer than Trickery, Mischief, and Chaos.After calming his mind a bit, Vahn looked at the dark blue orb in his hand before promptly crushing it as well. The same feeling of time freezing occurred and, for the second time in a single day, Vahn entered into the visions of a [Hearts Desire], this time for Chloe.---When Vahn awoke in the visionary space, he realized it was similar to the time he had met with Nanu, except for the fact that he couldn't see Chloe anywhere in sight. He turned his head and inspected the shards and images floating through space and realized many of the scenes contained within were similar events to what Chloe had described earlier. He could see versions of her at varying ages and watched her go through the process of being molded into an assassin.Though there were no sounds, Vahn did get to see an image of the goddess of Chloe's former Familia. She was a tall goddess with short red hair and completely black eyes that seemed to absorb light. Her attire consisted of leather clothing with various straps and pockets, and she had more than ten daggers just based on what Vahn could see. Though her eyes looked completely devoid of emotions, it was her smile that unsettled Vahn the most.The way she looked at the young Chloe was very similar to how Dr. Keenly had always looked at him in the past. Though it appeared amiable on the surface, it was the smile of someone that had a complete grasp of the situation and had grown accustomed to exploiting others. If not for the fact Vahn knew her behavior was related to her Divinity, he would have made a personal vow to oppose the cruel looking goddess in the future. Unless Chloe specifically asked him, Vahn wanted to let her memories of that time fade from existence entirely...After spending a great deal of time within the black space which seemed to ripple with every step he took, Vahn began to feel a bit worried and confused about what he was supposed to be doing. He had watched several of the images of Chloe's past, but no matter how much time passed, Vahn never saw the avatar of Chloe anywhere. It wasn't until he stopped browsing the images and sat down on the watery surface to ruminate over his thoughts that things began to change.Though he hadn't noticed at first, it wasn't long before Vahn saw the images within the space begin to break down and deteriorate and Vahn felt like it was similar to the time when he had watched his own memories fade after his first death. The more attention he paid the images, the longer they remained but, the moment he turned away, they would begin to break down into particles of light.Vahn began to worry a little because he didn't know what would happen if all the images faded and he was unable to find Chloe. If not for the fact that he had seen Nanu's images break down previously, he likely would have been experiencing a great deal of panic. He had talked to the young chienthrope after the matter and she seemed to be able to recall her past easily, so Vahn assumed the visions he was currently seeing had more to do with 'The Path' than the actual persons themselves.After a period of what felt like several days, most of the images had ceased to exist when Vahn stopped focusing on them. By the time things had stabilized, there were only a few images in the space which Vahn hadn't noticed previously. Curious, he began to browse through them since they didn't seem to be deteriorating like the memories from before.Though he didn't recognize everyone in the images, Vahn saw several of the girls from the Hostess of Fertility interacting with a cheerful looking Chloe. Unlike the sad and lonely memories of the past, all of the remaining images seemed to be of more happy times. Even though there were still occasions where Chloe took on missions, Vahn noticed she had always been doing so to help others. He even saw her playing with children outside an orphanage while being accompanied by Syr.As he moved further ahead in the images, Vahn even came to the point when he had first met Chloe when he visited the Hostess of Fertility of the first time. Unlike the earlier happier images, that had white or blue glows to them, the images with himself had warmer colors likes yellows and oranges. He eventually even found the memory of their first date and got to experience first hand how awkward his behavior was from the perspective of another. His former self, though still handsome, looked like a homeless person that hadn't practiced proper hygiene. When he saw himself in new clothes and with a haircut, Vahn saw that the images had taken on a somewhat rosy color for a brief moment.The rest of the images after that were Chloe's interactions with the people she cared about while he made brief appearances in many of them. Though he couldn't explain why, Vahn felt happy as he watched the scenes play out, almost as if he was experiencing the emotions of Chloe at the time. Eventually, some of the images became tinged with pink and they were often the scenes where he had been spoiling her after awakening from his coma. He felt a giddy feeling as he watched them and he was able to understand that Chloe had been genuinely happy at those moments.Her love for young boys and the thought of being spoiled by them was quite powerful and Vahn had the peculiar experience of looking up at his own face from the perspective of Chloe. It was strange because he seemed to be a lot more handsome than he remembered and his own eyes seemed to be like deep pools full of care, concern, and affection that made him feel slightly unnerved by the sight.Finally, Vahn arrived at the night when Chloe was recounting her tale and recalling her past while being cradled in his arms. Though the scene was somewhat bluish in color, it was also interspersed with yellows and pinks which became more prominent as the scene played out. Vahn could feel all of the emotions experienced by Chloe at the time and also had the strange opportunity to experience the 'warmth' of his own caress against her back.Suddenly, as he was focusing on the sensation, Vahn realized the caress wasn't coming from the image at all as he turned and saw the nude figure of Chloe standing slightly behind him with a mischevious smile on her face. Though his eyes were temporarily drawn to her body for a brief moment, he eventually made eye contact with her as she began laughing in a playful manner. Without saying anything, she pointed toward the memory Vahn had been experiencing so he turned his head to continue watching.After he had done so, the avatar of Chloe put her hands around his body and hugged him from behind. She rested her head against his back as he watched the scene continue and began to whisper in a low voice, "I don't care about the past anymore...as long as I can enjoy this warmth. I want to see it...the future illuminated by your light."Vahn was listening to her words in silence as he watched the scene progress to the point where Chloe had mounted him after their misunderstanding. At this point, the scene had turned into a rosy red color with pink and yellow hues and Vahn could feel a happiness, unlike anything he had ever personally experienced. The version of himself in her memory seemed to brightly illuminate the dark room as Chloe leaned against his body.When the Chloe in the image bit into the Vahn within, the avatar of Chloe hugging his back did the same in the black space. Unlike the painful sensation that he experience in the real world, Vahn could only feel the overwhelming happiness of the Chloe in front of him as well as the one behind him. Things continued all the way until the point where Chloe had collapsed onto the bed after their passionate embrace. Vahn noticed that, for a very brief moment, the luminance of the image had turned to a chaotic purple before he could hear the shattering of glass in the space around him.The chaotic purple aura vanished and was replaced by a vibrant golden color that radiated pinks and yellows that made the overwhelming sense of happiness he had experience earlier pale in comparison. Vahn realized that the lights in the image were coming from his own body within Chloe's memory and it brought him a powerful feeling of security. He could feel the avatar of Chloe hugging him tightly all the way up until the point where he hugged her in the memory.The empty black space began to break down at a visible rate, but Vahn didn't feel worried or concerned at all as he felt the comfort of both the Chloe in the memory being held by him, as well as the comfort he could feel right now as the avatar of Chloe cradled him in the same manner. The avatar of Chloe whispered in a cheerful tone, "You can feel it...we comfort each other and experience the same happiness. The light inside you drives away the darkness inside of me...so make sure to hold me close so I don't get lost."As her words tickled his ear, Vahn opened his eyes and was once again in his workshop within the orb. He heard a notification sound within his mind, but he ignored it for the time being as he just dazedly ruminated over everything he had just experienced. After nearly half an hour, his emotions began to stabilize and Vahn looked within the system to confirm his suspicions. He felt like that black space full of memories was something that appeared when he already completed the [Hearts Desire] of a person and was able to confirm it when he saw the earlier notification.//[Hearts Desire: Chloe Lolo] fulfilled. Extra parameter 'Love' unlocked.//[Chloe Lolo]: Love 148(Devoted)//Bond established with [Chloe Lolo]////Optional Quest Triggered//[Quest: A Man's Responsibility, Repeatable]Rank: B-SSObjective: Impregnate Chloe Lolo (0). Ensure a safe delivery; Current Children(0)Rewards: 100,000 OP, 1x [Guardian:(Nameless)]Failure Condition(s): Death, Chloe Lolo's Death, (Nameless) Child's DeathPenalty: 200 Karma (0)(A/N: Alternate Titles: 'Vahn, Godly Stalker', 'Chloe's Hope','The Optional Quest of Destiny')https://www.*******.com/user?u=14397149I am currently at $721/1200 of my new goal~! If I can reach this amount, I intend to start having character profiles and images of all the characters created so I can update the information to a wiki~! Though the Wiki will be accessible by anyone, only Patrons will receive the high-res versions of the images &lt;3

Vahn stared at the notification for a while and could feel a warmth spreading from his chest when he imagined the scene of him and Chloe back in the real world. Even now, though he was a spiritual body, Vahn realized he could feel the connection between them if he focused his mind. Since he had a 'bond' with those that loved him, Vahn was able to sense their feelings if he put in enough effort. Even though almost no time was passing at all for his physical body, Vahn could still feel the warmth shared by their connection.After recovering from his reverie, Vahn went about the remainder of his final day within the orb in a pleasant mood. When Eva had seen the way he was acting and asked about it, Vahn avoided the topic by explaining it was something he couldn't talk about while hugging her body from behind. Though she wanted to press him for answers, she too also felt secure in Vahn's arms and just allowed him to hold her without complaint. Vahn always treated her well, but it wasn't often he acted in such a proactive and caring manner so she wanted to enjoy the experience.They spent the rest of the time within the space together until Vahn finally returned to the real world and once again felt the natural warmth coming from Chloe's back. It was very similar to the sensations he had felt in the black space when he used her [Hearts Desire] previously. Not only could he feel the pleasant feelings coming from her body, but Vahn could also subtly feel the way Chloe currently felt. He remembered the feeling of security she had within the dream, so Vahn hugged her closely until he finally fell asleep a few minutes later.Because they had gone to bed so late, Vahn and Chloe ended up sleeping in until around noon when he was awakened by Chloe's movements. At first, because he had been holding her from behind, Vahn could only see the back of her head and had been enjoying the subtle fragrance of her hair. When she woke up though, Chloe turned around in his arms and faced toward him before hugging his body. Vahn could see her green eyes almost glowing as a happy and contented smile appeared on her face.Before she said anything, Vahn leaned forward slightly and gave her a short peck on the lips before smiling and saying, "Good morning, Chloe..." His actions caused her to laugh playfully before she repeated his actions on her own initiative. The kiss she gave him was markedly more passionate however and it seemed like things were beginning to progress into a strange direction when she leaned into his body with enough force to be resting on top of his chest.Though she didn't mount his stomach, which seemed to be common from Vahn's experience, she still leaned against his body with hers and Vahn could feel the springy and soft sensation of her breasts pressing into his bare chest. The situation was a bit awkward though since Vahn's right hand was pinned under her body and it felt weird to reach around with his left hand because he would only reach parts of her body from his current position.After a minute or so had passed, Vahn decided to free his right hand and reach it around Chloe's body before trying to hug her close to him. Her reaction was to stop resisting entirely so, instead of being held directly against him, Chloe actually rolled onto her side before turning belly-up while laying across Vahn's stomach. She immediately started laughing and Vahn wasn't sure how to react to the strange maneuver for a few seconds until he finally decided to stroke the line of Chloe's navel with his palm.She seemed to enjoy his caress as she held her hand on top of his and stared into his face with a happy and somewhat enamored expression as she said, "Good morning, Vahn...nya~." Vahn smiled in response before helping to lift her body with his left hand to pull her in for another short kiss. This time, she mounted his body properly and they locked eyes briefly before Chloe began stroking the bite mark that had been permanently embedded into his shoulder.Vahn was watching her actions while hugging her body around the waist. He had a somewhat mischevious smile on his face as he gently stroked her tail with his index finger. Though it wasn't as intense a reaction as the previous night, Chloe's eyes squinted slightly as her tail twitched with each of Vahn's movements. Just as it looked like Chloe was about to say something to egg him on, Vahn smiled and asked, "Do you work today?'Chloe's mind blanked for a moment before she removed her hands from Vahn's shoulders and held them upwards like she was lamenting against the gods in Heaven, "Nyaaaaaaa~! Mama Mia's gonna kill me~nya!" She then immediately tried to crawl off the bed to get changed, but not before Vahn was able to loosely grab her tail. Her momentum carried her forward and allowed her tail to pass end to tip within Vahn's hand so she collapsed onto the bed face-first with another loud, "Nyaaaaaaaaaaaa~!"After giving Vahn a slightly aggrieved look with a blush on her face, Chloe put her clothes back on in swift movements while Vahn also got ready. Seeing Chloe had almost finished dressing in her 'Black Cat' attire, Vahn flared his hand before a stark white sundress appeared out of thin air. Chloe looked at it with a strange expression before Vahn said, "It's the middle of the day, people might think it's strange if you're walking around in your assassin getup. Though you look like an Adventurer, there is always a chance someone might recognize you."Chloe considered his words for a short while before showing a mischievous smile and slowly stripping off her clothes. When Vahn averted his eyes out of habit, she laughed in a playful manner and said, "I want you to watch...to see the me only you're allowed to see~nya." Hearing her words, Vahn turned to Chloe with a slight smile on his face as he watched her slowly undress.Though he had seen them the night before, Vahn was surprised with how fair Chloe's breasts were compared to the slightly toned and lithe upper body. If not for his enhanced vision, Vahn might not have noticed, but they were a slightly lighter complexion than the rest of her body and Vahn could even see the briefest hint of subtle blue veins around the sides and near the pink protrusions of her nipples.Vahn suddenly realized something strange after thinking about the sundress in his hand and he asked, "You're not going to wear a bra?" His words and confused expression made Chloe laugh as she explained, "My bra is black, so it would show through the fabric of the sundress anways~nya. Besides, the straps are also large and they would stand out~."Vahn nodded his head in response while thinking he should have been more considerate when he picked the color of the dress. He had wanted Chloe to wear something to signify his desire to separate her from the darkness so he had chosen a stark white color. Vahn though it would make her look more lively and enhance the cheerful and mischevious character of Chloe. Since he had purchased it in consideration for Cat People, there was even a hole for her tail with a cute little bow above it.After her upper garments were gone, Chloe bent forward slightly after loosening her belt and giving Vahn an almost 'taunting' look as she thumbed the sides of her white shorts and slowly removed them from her body. Like the bra she had been wearing, Chloe panties were also black and had a somewhat tame and simple design. It didn't stop them from standing out against the pale-skinned Chloe though since they were a stark contrast to the rest of her body. By the time she had removed her shorts, Chloe was standing before Vahn in a pair of small black panties with black stockings. With her black tail, hair, and ears, it was an incredibly impactful sight for Vahn.With a big smile and slightly seductive look in her eyes, Chloe began removing her stockings as well, but not before she turned her back to Vahn. Her actions caused Vahn to swallow as he stared at her pert buttocks and the tail he had so decisively grabbed the previous night. Since she had to bend over slightly to remove the stockings, Chloe's butt danced about from her movements and her tail following her actions while drawing Vahn's eye.Clothed in only her black panties, Chloe turned back toward Vahn with an excited blush on her face as she began to thumb the sides of her panties as well. Vahn's mind buzzed in an instant before he realized what she was going to do. Since her panties were also black, they would also stand out in the white sundress that Vahn had purchased for her. Reaching out his hand slightly, Vahn said in an over-excited manner, "Wait one second!"Chloe was shocked by his outburst, but the smile on her face spread slightly wider as she playfully traced her fingers along the band of her panties. Her actions caught Vahn's eye, but he was somewhat distracted as he confirmed things with Sis within his mind. Fortunately, his intuition had proven correct so Vahn materialized a pair of white laced panties in his left hand which complimented the sundress since they had a small ribbon on the front.Seeing the pair of panties Vahn held out for her with a blush on his face, Chloe tilted her head and asked, "Nya~? You carry panties around in your 'storage magic'~?" Her words caused Vahn to blush since he didn't know how to explain things in a rational manner given the sudden increase in his own emotions. Chloe laughed at his reaction and snatched the panties from his hand without asking further.Vahn released a relieved sigh before his mind blanked suddenly after Chloe quickly removed her panties while he had dropped his guard. She now stood completely nude in front of him while watching his expression with interest on her face. Since Vahn didn't say anything, Chloe slowly turned her body and stretched her limbs a bit in various angles as if she was showing off in front of him. The entire time she did so, Vahn watched in silence and took in the various sights as his breathing began to increase steadily.Even though he stared at her with passionate eyes, Chloe didn't feel like his look contained any negatives feelings at all. Vahn gazed at her body with interest and curiosity and an unveiled excitement as though every part of her was something he found to be new and exciting. Satisfied by his reaction, Chloe asked in a mischevious intonation, "Do you like my body~nyahaha?"Her sudden question caused Vahn to stare into her green eyes with a bit of confusion on his face as he processed what she just asked. After a brief period, Vahn smiled and said in a very serious manner, "You're beautiful." This time it was Chloe's turn to blush as her mind blanked for a few seconds as she stared into his aquamarine eyes. She was stuck holding a somewhat awkward pose as if she was taunting him, and Chloe suddenly became overly aware of how forward she was acting.Without responding to his compliment, Chloe turned her gaze away slightly as she quickly put on the pair of white panties Vahn had purchased her. She noticed that the panties, though somewhat stretchy, perfectly fit her body without causing any discomfort whatsoever. For a brief moment, she imagined the bodies of the other girls around Vahn and wondered who he might have purchased them for. Shaking her head to clear the thought from her mind, Chloe returned to her mischevious expression as she walked toward Vahn before stopping right in front of him.Though she didn't ask, Vahn had a bit of expectation since he saw the look in her eyes. Rolling the sides of the sundress with his hands, Vahn placed it over Chloe's head as she stretched out her arms to assist him. Vahn found out that he enjoyed helping girls undress but was also somewhat fond of putting clothes he had given them on their bodies. It wasn't nearly as interesting as removing the garments, but it still made him feel excited when he finally saw them clothed in an outfit of his choosing.Once she was fully clothed, Chloe looked around for a mirror and Vahn placed out a large standing mirror for her use. It was the kind that allowed a person to see their full body, and Chloe began laughing at the image of the 'lively young girl' that was her own reflection. As Vahn had expected, the sundress suited Chloe well since it contrasted with her black hair, green eyes, and black tail. She had very fair skin and a lively expression on her face and it made her seem several years younger. Though she was only nineteen, Vahn felt like she tried to act far more mature than her age and it made him happy to see her current appearance.While she was caught up in her own reflection, Vahn laughed and caught her attention as she looked at him with a mixture of love and curiosity. Just as she was about to ask what he found funny, Vahn said, "If you take too long, won't Mama Mia be even angrier~?" The loving expression on Chloe's face slowly melted into one of abject terror as she repeated her earlier actions of spreading her arms in a lamenting fashion and shouting, "Nyaaaa~! We need to hurry~!" She then rushed out the door while Vahn followed behind her while laughing happily.As long as he gave Mama Mia a nice tip, she probably wouldn't be upset with Chloe at all. Syr had probably already explained things to her and any berating of Chloe would just be for the purpose of display. Vahn just enjoyed teasing Chloe and found her current behavior to be far more suitable than the serious person she tried to act like at times. Vahn looked forward to being able to see her act this way more often as he planned various methods to properly spoil the girl who had done so much for him in the past. She had given him her trust, affection, and even love, and Vahn would do his best, not to return what she had given him, but care for and nurture it so they would both be happy.(A/N: Alternate Titles: 'Love is a shared experience','Strip Tease','The secret of the perfect fit')https://www.*******.com/user?u=14397149I am currently at $721/1200 of my new goal~! If I can reach this amount, I intend to start having character profiles and images of all the characters created so I can update the information to a wiki~! Though the Wiki will be accessible by anyone, only Patrons will receive the high-res versions of the images &lt;3

After Vahn finished wiping down his body, he noticed an itchy feeling coming from his shoulder that drew his attention. Since he had read about the ecology and attributes of all the races, Vahn knew that Cat People secreted an enzyme from their mouth when excited which would cause a wound to close quickly but prevent it from healing fully. This was how they 'marking' ceremony usually worked when the female would bite their partner. It was supposed to ward off other girls by showing them that the male was 'claimed'.Since Vahn's body could naturally filter stuff like toxins, it had the same effect when it came to the enzymes generated by Chloe. If left as is, his body would probably naturally recover and the scar would be gone in a few hours. While he was thinking about a solution, Sis said, (*You don't need to worry about it as long as you want the mark to stay.*)Vahn was surprised that she spoke out since Sis usually kept silent when he was interacting with others. Before he could ask, she continued, (*Remember that your body is comprised of Source Energy and your form adapts to the ideals and desires you have. As long as you want the wound to stay, it will not heal fully.*) Her words shocked Vahn because, if his deduction was correct, that would also mean that his body didn't change unless he chose...Answering his question before he could answer it, Sis explained, (*That is indeed the case, Vahn. Though you still age, your body doesn't mature naturally in the same way as a normal person. Your constitution is closer to the gods of this world and, if you so desired, you wouldn't physically age at all.*)Vahn remembered that, when he first came to this world, Sis had informed him that his body was always his 'ideal', but he never really considered what that meant. He initially thought she was referring to his body when he first arrived in this world and never considered that it might be the case indefinitely. That would mean that the only reason he changed at all would be because the way he saw himself changed. The reason for his inexplicable growth spurt and the physical maturation of his body was because he wanted to appear more reliable to the people around him.As if to confirm something, Vahn asked in his mind, ("Does that mean...I can change my body however I want?") After his question fell, he could hear Sis laughing in his mind for a few seconds before she said, (*It has to be how you truly see yourself or what you genuinely wish to become. Unless your desire to change is strong enough, you wouldn't be able to change form quickly.*)Vahn released a relieved sigh because, if he truly could change however and whenever he wanted, he was afraid that he would lose his sense of self over time. It would be easy to get caught up in being what other people wanted him to be and it would cause his relationships to develop in a strange manner. It did give him a bit of hope about the future though since he had actually been someone concerned about his own penis size. If he learned to change his own mental image, he should be able to make it 'easier' for some of his future partners to deal with.As the thought passed through his mind, Vahn could hear Sis's bell-like laughter in his head. He had never heard her act so unreserved before and he was about to ask if anything had changed. Expecting his question, Sis responded in a 'cheerful' sounding voice, (*Other than your Soul Tier increasing, nothing much has changed with myself or the functions I have access to. I was just laughing because your concerns were very cute.*)Vahn tried processing what she had just said and wanted to retort that there had been some kind of change given how she was acting. She just assured him that it was a result of his own mental development so Vahn eventually accepted her explanation before turning his attention back to Chloe. Though it might have seemed like a lot of time had passed, he had been conversing with Sis for the few minutes when Chloe was trying to regain her breathing and organize her thoughts.After he had gotten the notification for the quest completing earlier, Vahn noticed that Chloe's gaze toward him had changed in a very subtle but impactful way. Even when she had 99 affection for him, it had always been something like [Trust], but now it had actually converted itself to [Love] when she reached 100. Though it was only a single point difference, it had a much more powerful implication with the inclusion of that word.Once she had finally stabilized her breathing, Vahn helped wipe down the sweat off her body and the two eventually ended up cuddling together. For the first time, Vahn got to experience what it was like to genuinely hold a woman in his arms as Chloe entrusted her back to him while he embraced her from behind while they were both on their sides. Even though they were similar in height, Vahn felt like Chloe was much smaller than he expected since her figure was thin and lithe. When they both laid on their sides, other than her hips, which drew a captivating curve, Vahn felt like he was much 'wider' than she was. It made him feel a strange emotion like he was 'protecting' her, which was a notion also shared by Chloe who had quickly fallen asleep after she wrapped her tail around Vahn's leg.When she had done so, Vahn suddenly felt like he was stuck in this position for the rest of the night, almost like she was preventing him from running away. He laughed a bit on the inside as he rested his forehead against the back of her hair and enjoyed her scent without directly inhaling it. Since they had both been topless, Vahn enjoyed the warmth coming from Chloe's back and the fact that they were able to hold hands while he embraced her from behind.Because of the length of the story and how late Chloe had arrived, it was already slightly after the time when Vahn was supposed to enter the orb, but he believed Eva would understand the situation after a bit of coaxing. After waiting for Chloe's breathing to transition into a deep slumber, Vahn removed the orb and held it in his right hand has he immersed his consciousness into it.Eva had been waiting for his arrival, but she wasn't mad at all since she knew about the things that had been going on around Vahn in the real world. Though she felt a bit exasperated when she found out the matter concerned a woman, Eva didn't complain and just got Vahn to treat her with increased affection for the three day period. They spent a lot of time relaxing in the pond she had created within the castle's boundaries and Vahn promised to find a way to bring in some live animals to populate it in the future if he could.During this three day period, Vahn spent the majority of his time forging as normal, but there was also something else he had decided to do since the opportunity presented itself. Before he returned to the castle to clean up and tend to Eva, Vahn pulled out two small marble-like orbs into his hand and entered a period of silent contemplation. The dark blue orb with a yellow light belonged to Chloe, while the crimson orb with purple light belonged to Loki. They were each of the girls [Hearts Desire]'s and Vahn intended to use his time in the orb to use them both.The only reason he hesitated was that, even after having a form of reconciliation with Loki, Vahn was still somewhat unnerved about her heart's desire. Since he got to experience a bit of their past from their perspective, Vahn was somewhat afraid of what he would see within the small orb. He feared that, if things were twisted to a degree he couldn't tolerate, he might not be able to approach Loki in the future even though he empathized with her.His concerns about Loki's desire also made him hesitate about using Chloe's since it almost seemed unfair to skip over one woman and move on to another. After a bit of hesitation, Vahn shook his head after remembering everything Loki had been trying to do for him lately. She had made vows for him, lead the negotiations with Ouranos, and even promised to change her relationship with Hestia for the better. He couldn't ignore her efforts, especially after she had explained the way Divinity works and had even allowed him to bind her with [Enkidu] just to prove herself to him.Crushing the tiny orb in his hands, Vahn felt the air stagnate as time slowed to a crawl. Visions began entering his mind and Vahn saw a sight that would fundamentally change his perspective about many things...Vahn, as Loki, was standing in a great stone pantheon surrounded by gods and goddesses with blurred facial expressions. All the normal colors and vibrancy of the world seemed dull and monotonous as she continued playing a never-ending game with all of the unchanging and egotistical gods around her. No matter how much time passed, even though they underwent various experiences, none of the gods and goddesses around her ever seemed to change. She too, suffered from the same curse, since she was always compelled to continue going about her day to day life creating new schemes and causing chaos in the godly community.Though there were many people that she pretended to get along with, Loki hated every other god and goddess while feeling disgusted about her own existence. She felt like a slave that was bound to fulfill a purpose she had no interest in, but no matter how much she tried to change it and resist, she always gave in after the fear of death encroached on her mind. She didn't want to disappear, because the thought of non-existence terrified her ceaselessly.Millenia turned into eons as the monotony continued while she played the role fate had assigned her. She had various enemies and allies, but no matter how interesting things became, she would always be compelled to cause chaos and drive a wedge between the relationships she had without everyone around her. If not for her ability to exploit the Divinity of the others, Loki would have little to no interactions with other gods and goddesses.As time passed, her hatred for her own existence and the existence of other gods grew to a level where it felt like she would be driven mad. She especially hates gods that didn't seem to be influenced much by their Divinity and those whose Divinity brought them happiness. However, the more her hatred grew and the longer she lived, so too grew her fear of ceasing to exist. She didn't want her life to be a waste where she had no accomplishments other than serving her 'purpose' in the grand prison of Heaven which was thought of as a paradise by the ignorant mortals.If not for the fact that taking action would result in her destruction, Loki would have done everything in her power to forcibly change the monotony of her life. She desperately wanted to kill the other gods and create chaos in heaven. If she could, she even wanted the chaos to spread to the mortal world since she had long grown jealous of the 'freedom' possessed by mortals. If not for the fact they were the only interesting thing she had seen in her tireless existence, she would have tried to reign down judgment on them.Eventually, a time came when one of the gods had discovered a way for gods to descend from Heaven and seal away some of the constraints of their own Divinity. Though she would lose the majority of her power, Loki was one of the goddesses that descended in the early batches so that she could experience life among mortals and finally escape her prison.However, even though it was far more interesting associating with humans and she got the opportunity to experience a variety of unique forms of stimuli, Loki was still unhappy. She was still a slave to her own Divinity and it even influenced some of the children she had taken a liking to and forced them along a difficult path. If not for her desire to eliminate all the things that restricted her entertainment, Loki would have wanted them to lead a better life without being bound by her influence. Just as she was a slave to her own Divinity, so too were her children a slave to her whims, schemes, plots, and selfishness.With her eyes turned toward the sky, Loki imagined what it would be like if she had enough power to destroy everything and reset the entire world. She wanted to destroy it all, the laws, the aspects of Divinity, the Gods, and even the Heavens themselves. The only thing she would spare would be the mortals of the world who put in so much effort to create meaning in their short lives. Even though they only lived for a fraction of her continued eternity, each moment of their life felt more real, more impactful, than anything she experienced even when living among them.Loki hated the unchanging nature of the world, herself, her fellow gods, and the prison of eternity that threated any happiness she might seek out with absolute destruction. She wanted to escape from it all and find some way to break free from the endless cycle...Eventually, as she was continuing the eternal cycle of her existence, Loki came across something new, something she had never expected to find. Even in all of the years she had lived in Heaven and amongst mortals, Loki hadn't even considered the possibility of such an anomaly existing. Though she only thought he was a marginally more unique demigod at first, Loki quickly discovered that the boy, Vahn Mason, was something far more than her expectations had led her to believe.After a serious of investigations and interactions with other gods and goddesses, she slowly obtained more information about the boy by using her own Familia as leverage to get access into his life. She was eventually able to strike a deal where she would be able to directly influence the boy, but that led to a result, a revelation, that she had never expected. After attending a meeting with some of the girls, women, and goddesses that sought out the boy, Loki learned about the boy's origins and the existence of an item that transcended all logic. If the words she heard were true, she would be able to have a child with the boy she had taken an interest in and finally experience a truly dynamic change outside of her own influence and expectations.Even if she had to change everything about herself on a fundamental level, Loki couldn't pass up such a unique opportunity. For the first time in her eternity, she believed she may have found a way to escape from the endless cycle. She could finally see an end to the monotony, the games, the schemes, and the cycle of hatred that defined her life. If she could be with the boy, Loki would finally be able to experience a life, a sequence of events, outside her expectations and control. She immediately set out to guarantee this would come to fruition and hoped that the boy wouldn't force her to do something drastic...(A/N: I know some people might be a bit confused about this chapter, and you have to understand that Loki's life and mental state are actually intentionally chaotic. An easy way to summarize her desires is: She wants to be free from the prison of her own Divinity. If she can't be free, she wants to destroy everything and spare the mortals since they, though bound by their own mortality, live truly free lives only restricted by themselves and others.)(A/N: Alternate Titles: 'Be Yourself','Loki's Desire: Hatred, Destruction, Freedom','Vahn opens Pandora's Box')https://www.*******.com/user?u=14397149I am currently at $721/1200 of my new goal~! If I can reach this amount, I intend to start having character profiles and images of all the characters created so I can update the information to a wiki~! Though the Wiki will be accessible by anyone, only Patrons will receive the high-res versions of the images &lt;3

Chapter 211: Desires (2/2)