Fenrir's Journey : I Shall Devour The Heavens!

Other than the warmth of its Master, loneliness seemed to be the only emotion the Kobold could feel. It was almost like the emotion completely encompassed its body, threatening to consume what little self-awareness it had. Unable to deal with the loneliness any longer, the Kobold began scratching at the trees in the garden, digging holes, and pulling up grass. It 'needed' to do something, anything, to keep it distracted from the loneliness. The only thing that kept it going was the 'trust' it had towards the only existence that had ever treated it kindly, it's Master...It hurt...everything hurt...its stomach, muscles, bones, everything. The Kobold felt like the pain of loneliness had completely soaked through its existence. If not for the 'promise' of it's Master, the Kobold felt like the pain would have been unbearable. It would be 'so easy' to just simply end everything...it just had to make the scary girl angry...but it didn't. It 'couldn't' betray its Master like that, not after everything that had happened...not after it waited so long. It wanted to be 'good', just like it's Master always told it to be...Just as the pain seemed completely unbearable, the Kobold sensed the presence of its Master once again. If it had tear ducts, the Kobold would have cried as it weakly tried to lift its body and go to its Master. Then, just as before, its Master came to it with a face full of concern and the happy times began again. This time, knowing that this moment wasn't likely to last, the Kobold did its utmost to spend as much time as possible with its Master. Even when he was hard at work in the warm and cozy 'workshop' that he had built, the Kobold stayed nearby. Just watching its Master hard at work made it feel content and, whenever he would take a break, the Kobold wanted to be nearby to show its support...As it expected, the sad and lonely times came once again, this time in what felt like a very short period of time. Everything was so much better whenever its Master was around so, seeing him leave this space, the Kobold felt dread. However, just at it had done both times before, the Kobold resolved itself to wait patiently. Its Master had done so much for it, all without ever asking for anything in return. Thus, trusting in the 'promise' its Master had made, the Kobold waited once again, no matter how painful and lonely things became...It hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...it hurt...Feeling as though something inside of itself had broken, the Kobold could only repeat the same thought over and over within its small mind. It didn't truly understand the seed that had formed but, on an instinctual level, it knew what it was feeling was an emotional pain that was beyond tolerance...(Fenrir's Commentary: 'It is painful being lonely...')

When its Master returned the next time, the Kobold almost hadn't sensed him at all. It wasn't until he was nearby that the link between them brought it back from the endless cycle of pain. When the warm feeling spread through its body, the Kobold wanted nothing more than to latch onto that warmth. It didn't like be alone, not one bit...As if understanding its pain, the Kobold's Master gently stroked its head and said, "I won't leave you in here anymore...I'm sorry for making you have to go through this." Though it didn't understand its Master's words, the Kobold felt an elation, unlike anything it had ever experienced before. It believed that the loneliness would go away forever this time. Just imagining, yes, 'imagining', spending all of its time by it's Master's side made the Kobold unbelievably excited...This time, after another series of happy moments, it's Master turned to it and passed his warm fingers through the mangy coat of fur before saying, "The next time, I'll be sure to help you become stronger. I'll try not to keep you waiting long..." Not understanding what its Master was saying, the Kobold simply nodded its head. The care and concern it was receiving was the only thing that mattered, at least until a 'collapsing' feeling appeared in its body. In the next instant, the Kobold found itself within its core once again. Then, as it had experienced a very long time ago, it was surrounded by endless darkness. A feeling of profound sadness spread through the Kobold's 'heart' but, as the bond it had towards its Master was still active, it decided to believe in his words once again...Fortunately, the wait this time wasn't nearly as long as the previous times. The Kobold felt happy when it finally came out of its core once again, at least until it saw that it was in the strange space with the scary girl. A panic, unlike anything it had ever experienced, began to spread through its body. If not for the warm energy coming from its Master, the Kobold felt like it wouldn't have been able to go on. However, this fear faded away very quickly when it's Master uttered the words that would change its life forever, "From now on...you shall bear the record of Fenrir!"A massive flood of energy began to enter the body of the Kobold, now understanding it was named Fenrir. The energy was overwhelming but caused an incredible excitement to spread through Fenrir's body because this was an energy that belonged to it. When the flood of energy began to cease, Fenrir turned towards the hateful space overhead and, channeling the power inside of itself, began to destroy it. Now that it had power, it refused to be held inside this space once again. Even if its Master didn't want to take it along, Fenrir was determined to follow him. It wanted to prove that it was no longer the weak and frail Kobold of the past...(Fenrir's Commentary: 'Fenrir remembers that moment...it is a precious memory')

Every time something good seemed to happen, it was always followed by a very long period of darkness, or loneliness. The Kobold had never known what it was to be 'lonely' but, after experiencing the kindness of its Master, the Kobold truly missed his presence. It knew the scary woman didn't like it, even going so far as the 'try and drown' it inside of a small bath. Since that time, the Kobold had done its best to avoid her, sleeping outside under the starless sky. Fortunately, though the Kobold was certain the young girl hated it, she still gave it food to eat a few times a day. This food was better than anything it had ever eaten before so, while it was still sad and lonely, the Kobold still held hope that it's Master would someday day return...no matter how many days passed...Then, one day, he did. Even without being about to see him directly, the Kobold knew its Master and returned for it, hopefully to take it away from this sad and lonely place. When the Kobold saw its Master approaching with a concerned and apologetic expression on his face, it felt happy, another emotion it wasn't quite sure how to express. Trusting its instincts, the Kobold began to weakly wag its tail while the familiar warm energy spread through its tired body. Though it hadn't given up hope that he would return, the Kobold had started to eat a lot less than before. The food had begun to taste bland and, other than the memory of it's Master's warm and gentle hands, the Kobold stopped caring about everything else...Just as before, the Kobold's Master treated it very well, always saying kind words and petting it. Unlike how other people looked toward it, often with fear, hatred, or disgust, it's Master always had a kind and warm aura. Before, the Kobold didn't even know what a smile was but, seeing it's Master smile, it believed it was something precious...something worth protecting. When it's Master smiled, the Kobold also felt the urge to smile but, unable to, decided wagging its tail was a good alternative. This seemed to please the Master even more, making the Kobold feel vindicated, especially when it got more petting for its efforts...Though it harbored hope that the happy times would continue forever, reality proved otherwise. Once again, the Kobold's Master vanished from the space, leaving only the scary and cruel girl behind. This time, the girl just ignored it, something the Kobold was very grateful for, so it went off to busy itself within the recently formed garden. Though its instincts told it that this would be another long wait, the Kobold hoped that its Master would return sooner. It didn't like being separated from its Master, not one bit...Believing that time would pass faster if it slept, the Kobold found an area in the garden and dug a cozy hole for itself to sleep in. Doing its best to hold onto the warm memories of its Master, the Kobold curled up into a ball and began waiting...(Fenrir's Commentary: 'Those were very lonely days...')

Chapter 4: Pain